Sunday, January 15, 2006
A Heartfelt Apology..Having gotten to know you, ranks highly amongst my greatest joys, and you will always be one that I will forever hold dear. I still remember our first conversations on the net and on the phone. Something inside me just told me, that you were the one. Yet, deep down, I was always afraid that it may all end, and be stolen away from me. And that fear proved to be my biggest mistake.
But if there was any one moment where I had really shown how much I loved you, it was the night when I was pissed drunk, and confessed my true feelings for you. I remember that nite so vividly, esp the joys tat you shared with me. And I am glad, to have lived that moment with you.
Babe, I dun want to lose you forever. I dun think that I can take that. I just want you back in my life. As my partner, as my confidante, as my best friend, as my anbu thollai, as the one who sets my heart racing everytime I see your number flashing on my hp. Because I really miss you, and I am really sorry for all that I have done. It may only have been a month, but I just feel that I have lost my sunshine. I just want my nights to be filled with your endless banter, I want my inbox to be filled with your smses, I want my kuttis to continue chatting about you as their favorite akka, like they've always done, till today.
I did some of the most dumbest, stupidest things during the period of our relationship, and even, at certain junctures of the break-up. And I honestly do not know, after all this if I truly deserve your forgiveness. I guess this emptiness that I am experiencing right now, is the best punishment meted out to me for all that I made you believe in and all that I had done to you.
But for now, my joys come from your happiness, and seeing you so happy, does bring me a smile. I do not know if our happy days will ever come back, but I believe in miracles. And I sincerely hope and pray for one so that someday, we will be the way we were.
10:10 AM
supernova lit up.
